Who's Mad?


It’s been awhile since I’ve been angry. Now I’ve had my moments of sadness, and hurt, but I haven’t been angry in a long time. My baby had a cold (and we all know how much I’m attached to my baby) well he had a cold and it through me off my square a slight bit. I really don’t like him being sick at all. So I decided to take him in for a checkup because I wasn’t comfortable with how he was breathing. Make a long story short it was just a normal virus, nothing major but while we were preparing for him to get checked, I started praying and began to get mad. I know crazy right? How do you get mad while praying?

As I began to declare healing, I started crying and felt anger rising in me. I then quoted something my Bishop had taught the Sunday prior and told God that Jonah’s healing was a need and that I was Expecting him to heal him and that it wouldn’t be nothing serious going on with him (i.e. flu, pneumonia). After his test results came back negative, I immediately thanked God. Once settled in at home, I started self reflecting, I wasn’t mad about Jonah being sick but it was just the “tip of the iceberg” for the things that had transpired that week prior to. As I thought about those things as well, I came to the realization that I had no reason to be mad. Some things, I could not control (like Jonah catching a cold), some things that hadn’t happened, that I needed to happen, hadn’t manifested because I hadn’t put in the work for it to happen, nor had I placed myself in position to receive those things in which I had prayed to God about. So how could I be angry?

Sometimes we find ourselves angry, mad, and or disappointed at What Is and What Is Not happening in our lives. But have You put forth Your Best Effort? Self Reflection is always a good way to start when figuring out the What’s, Why’s, and Where’s in Your Life. Start with You.

John 10:10
A thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I have come so that you may have life and have it in abundance.

Be the best You,
J. Renee






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